sometimes it feels like im drowning and dying in it like im suffocating and being pulled and pushed and stabbed. i feel like i cant win and that im constantly losing and that i dont really feel good in a brain sometimes, i hope i can heal. i hope i can accept the good things i have and not be upset about the things i wanted in my life and the things i wouldve done differently had i had the chance.
when do you figure out what to do?
how does it come about and when does it feel good.